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But if your heart's not in it, for real.
Please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
If love's already gone,
Its not fair to lead me on.
Cause, i would give the whole world, for you.
Anything you'd ask of me, i'll do.
But i wont ask you to say,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
somehow, i feel good after my haircut.
kinda short now.
i'm a bung!
was pretty down today.
found out that another portion of the level hates me due to some other reasons.
there goes another group of anti-rae(s).
speech day was pretty okay.
except clarencelim sucks.
and mrtay got an award.
the funniest part was the aijunan part!
i bet he dare not to bow low cos he's scared his wig will drop.
was like freaking scared (as usual).
but its over!yaaay.
lunch was pretty good!
DUH!it was wif my baby.
but leaving her was really bad until i wanted to cry.
she came for speech day!
what a pleasant surprise.
though she wasnt inside,
at least after everything was still wif her.
hoho.
garde cheerleading babies are doing just fine.
=)
but i feel that i dont want to be the hse capt.
anyway,
i'm kinda disgusted by mspoon.
and DARREN CHIN SUCKS.
he just want to suck up to both sides.
and i got scolded, through the loud speaker(somemore!) cos of him.
grrrrr.
first attempt of baking.
pretty good!
all for my baby!
i'm sad now.
moodswing.
dont touch me.
shoo.
i'm so tempted to go for another tattoo.
this time i want one on my ankle.
ha!
i seem to always choose places that are the most painful?
its okkaaayyy.
aint couples bathing together the sweetest thing on earth?
ps. not me though! i read it elsewhere.
HELL.
I WANT ANOTHER TATTOO.
heh. =)
i want to cut my hair.
like tanying's!
HA!
you know whats the best way to hide that you are fat?
take pictures of yr ugly face only.
thats a smart tactic know.
LIN XIAO JUN IS A SLUT.
can she like stop throwing herself at guys?
shameless.
and the stupid damn guy has such a drop-dead gorgeous girlfriend,
and he choses to meet this fat slut instead.
not to mention,
her ex was another slut.
who throws herself at anyone available.
i'm so freaking disgusting by such people.
firstly, the one from my class.
now so many disgusting people.
on a lighter note,
its easter sunday!
thank God that you're alive today cos Jesus died on the cross for yr sins.
and on the third day he rose again!
=)
i'm so addicted to that song.
long week ahead.
i think i'll slim down naturally.
speech day (yucks)
practices and practices for cheerleading.
digressing, some pple are unhappy that i want to be sports rep so that i can be house capt.
anyway, i got lots of house matters to deal wid.
pouts*
now i wanna be, where you sleep.
HANDS OFF MY GIRLFRIEND.
kindly restrain from throwing yrself on her.
for she wont want you.
i dont know how many people have asked me
if me and my sister are twins.
HELL, LIKE NO!
it doesnt mean that we are of the same height
we are twins okay.
i then dont want to be twin wif her.
she's crazy.
obsessed wif herself.
shrugs*
http://www.ripp-ed_away.blogspot.com
on a lighter note,
i know the title of the song already!
woohs.
just before i could say,
hands off my girlfriend.
i quit believing in eternity.
ages ago.
i'm the the rae is used to be anymore.
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some songs just have this effect on me.
makes me so want to cry.
http://www.freewebtown.com/someoneswatching/wannabe.swf
(edited: click the play)
presenting,
princess rae and a bung named alex.
i'm not pretty enough. . .
hell, i'm pmsing.
seriously.
number one.
i'm turned off by guys.
number two.
technology is failing us.
my comp's freaking slow.
number three.
clarence lim sucks.
number four.
damn you.
grrrr.
this is how bad mood i am.
good thing she's not on the fone right now.
or i'll just scream my head off.
and my poor baby will be screamed at for nothing.
honestly,
my heart goes out to you.
who, apparently has totally no dignity and respect for yr own body.
having dirty hands that does things to degrade yrself.
indulge in fakness to hide yr insecurity.
and lie through yr entire life just to cover up.
which apparently, hell, we see through them.
causing everyone to loathe you.
for all that you've done,
words from me: failure in life.
so what if so many he(s) want you.
all of them are just as desperate as you.
one fine day,
they will be removed of their blindness.
and come to realise that
YOU ARE NOTHING GOOD.
no outter beauty.
inner beauty is definitly a hell no.
and yr body is nothing but dirty and shameless.
i pity you for living yr life like that.
and i'm absolutely turned off by you.
today was rolling eyes day.
leader's investure was okaay.
desperate cedarians turning around constantly to have a glimpse of the guys sitting behind.
(espeically you. who tries to show that you seem to know every guy in the world.)
FOR WHAT?!
cedar already has good looking males like mrchancheekiang.
digressing, i admire pple who can dance.
i love my tattoo.
=)
speech day's coming up.
i figured its a must to wear a super long skirt.
even yr hair cant have a strand dropping down or something.
i would rather not go up to the stupid stage and receive some voucher man.
forgive me.
i'm pmsing.
I WANT MY GIRLFRIEND.
NOOOWWWW.
(kindly click for a larger view)
not that i'm trying to show how fat i am,
but the right corner,
see that tiny stuff there?
(it looks tiny winy here la)
yes, thats my love.
=)
term has started.
yay.
(LIKE REAL.)
i realised i got tonns to do as the garde housecapt.
and brainstorm over how garde wont be last this year.
we are that pathetic okaaayy.
hope that the ex sec4s from garde ont hit me right in the face.
spent straight 100 minutes in the sickbay again.
did i mention i'm a regular there?
once a month last year.
and probably this year too.
i dont know why.
i somehow miss my bitch partner.
i feel like bitching now.
i guess she's catching spongebob now.
yes, without me.
term 2 will be very busy.
i guess, most of the time i'll be pmsing.
started my dieting today!
didnt eat for recess.
spent most of the time complaining to her that i'm in hell pain.
lunch was salad!
and dinner was little rice and veg.
great diet for a start.
i think i should start studying for my chinese test.
which is tomorrow.
=)
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i want my girlfriend.
pouts*
firstly,
i just want to wish my sister,
happy 16th birthday!
one year has passed since the last time at thaiexpress.
and today we're probably going there again.
can help it la,
my sister likes it.
mr dd loves me damn alot!
she can tolerate all kinds of nonsense from me.
and still sound perfectly nice.
not to mention, sweet!
i really mean it when i say lesbians are the sweetest things okaay.
i certainly would not be surprised
if the number of lesbian couples outnumber those hetrosexual ones.
look at the astonishing number of bungs you see in town!
try counting, especially on a festive day like:
christmas eve.in town.
thats what me jo sister did okaay.
yr jaw will just drop at the number.
thus, they'll have their girlfriends.
so its a x2.
but baby, thats only about 10% of the number.
HA!
no girl would want to be just a sex toy for any guy right.
accept the fact that guys cant resist.
their main aim,
is to put theirs inside yours.
whereas girls, its more about emotional rather than physical.
girls need love, and they only can get it from girls.
as for gays. . .
that i dont know la!
they still want to put theirs inside others.
but maybe they just want to be special?!
shrugs*
today will be the first day
i show my love to my friends!
hope it doesnt attract the sharp eyes of my mother.
you see. my jeans are super low.
its obvious know.
but i'm super proud of it.=)
i feel like sleeping for the whole of today.
currently playing:
your song / elton john
thats the second most beautiful song in the world.
no song can replace
how do i live in my heart.
how wonderful life is now you're in the world.
both elton john and trisha yearwood sings out the words i want to say to you.
i miss cheryl!
MISS MISS MISS THE SHORT BABE.
i hate days like this.
when they are irregular.
it wasnt like that last time.
haa. maybe wo you le.
=) i shall name my baby this time!
i bet mr dd must be rolling her eyes when she see this!
mr dd, i miss you so much.
i think lesbians are the sweetest things!
raaaaahhhh.
somehow i got a feeling. . .
that i'm a genius!
i just love to crack codes.
can you feel my excitement now?!?!
against all odds,
i love mr dd!
hugggsss tightly-
currently, i'm waiting for mr dd to come online.
appareently, she's taking a zillion years to come.
i want to dance in the moonlight.
come on baby,
kiss me like you mean it.
i have a bung for a sister.
can you believe it?!
pL super filled wif lesbians.
byebye!
two words:
excruciating pain.
no kidding man.
but the good news: i didnt cry!
aint you proud of little rae?
sadly, my butterfly flew away.
but its alright!
i dont mind having my butterfly next time.
its just a simple r now.
but its beautiful.
it just turned out real great.
mr dd was there all along for me!
thank you silly baby.
a walk to remember is so sad.
i dont want the girl to die.
="(
serious mugging starts today!
(i hope)
how wonderful life is now you're in the world.
i'm so addicted.
you guys should be hooked up too.
behind blue eyes.
perhaps today is the last day to admire my flawless skin.
ha.
i think i'll cry my world out la!
just cry and cry and cry.
maybe that'll hinder the process.
but i bet many other pple cry too!
yes, no turning back.
i hate it when i flare.
and hurt mr dd.
grrrrrrr.
sometimes i really feel like bashing myself up.
so happy together.
memories flooding back like some crazy shit.
one day, you'll love me like i've loved you.
one day, you'll think of me like i've thought of you.
one day, you'll cry for me like i've cried for you.
one day, you'll want me but i wont want you.
life is so sad.
the most wonderful thing in the world is
to love and be loved in return.
isnt it so true?
ps.mr dd's currently in geylang!
so naughty!
here i am, at this time of the day.
yes, i'm at home.
apparently i had a date wid mr dd to go eat some famous roti prata together.
i'm at home blogging now because
she's at work.
and doesnt wish to pangseh her juli to work by herself.
the end result is that i have to eat instant noodles at home.
boo!
oh my.
i simply cant wait for monday to come.
monday, will certainly be a turning point in my life.
AIIYYAAAHHH. I SIMPLY CANT WAIT LA.
today's my bitch birthday.
not fair.
i also want redearth nail polish.
the whole collection.=)
cheryl leong!
i miss you so much too!
ps. you are so short.awww.
(i know i'm irritating.)
serious studying gonna start on tuesday.
hope that i wont die on monday or something!
i got lots to catch up on.
i hate school today.
its probably the worst day in cedar.
against all odds, garde house captain!
WHY GARDE SO PRO?
yaaaayy!
mr dd's ending work in 10mins time.
yes yes.
i've decided.
i'm gonna do it.
i dont care i'm being rash or what.
I AM GONNA DO IT.
just be prepared to see the results!
i just realised me and ena can bitch.
yes we can.
apparently, thats the only thing we know la.
to bitch. HAHAHA.
mr dd! i miss you.
today is the second last day of school.
tomorrow is the last day of school.
for term one only.
boo.
pe lesson was grrr!
the soccer ball hit my leg.
and i coulnt help it.
i was like crying!
and laughing at the same time.
yes, i know i'm mei you yong.
how i hate speech day!
yes my skirt is short and tight.
my blouse is big.
blah blah blah.
what the hell.
but i know,
i'm drop dead gorgeous.
thank you very much.
i want to sign off now.
yes, i'm mrs dd.
like only today then i know probably 90% of the level hates me?!
yes, for one simply reason:
i act cute.
is like?! do i even act cute?
fine. dont ask me.
i got no comments.
tay was indeed charming for like once in a million years!
training today was light.
i slept at 8 last night.
and survived double chem today.
hmms.okaaayyy.
we have 5 more weeks to our mids.
praise the Lord.
who knows right.
like anti-rae-the-super-act-cute club exist.
arghhh.fine.
how do i live is indeed the most beautiful song in the world.
wow.trisha yearwood sings the best version of it.
ps. i want an orange skin for my ipod.
pouts*
and thats my baby!
sweet smelling baby.
yes i cant bear to use it so often.heh.
i like cried watching moulinrouge again!
the side effects are just so great.
was like affected all along.
like why must the girl die.
arghh so sad right.
cant they like me together after everything?
i just hate such shows.
i dont like sad endings.
tamago!
means egg in jap.
review of the past week:
apparently, my diet plan for the week failed.
i merely want to satsify my hunger!
and i feel so guilty after eating.
i wont burn much calories just from a few training and afew laps of swimming know.
i guess i have to come up wif another diet plan.
salad for whole of next week!
(please dont tell me i'm skinny/thin.
i'll be complacent.)
comflicts everywhere.
sighs.
i hope ganma will take care.
i'm as pretty as cleopatra!
hohoho.
have you ever wonder,
what if you lived in a whole of darkness for so long,
that you forgot how colours actually looked like?
its really unlucky get pregnant after first sex.
shhh.i dont want to laugh.
or i'll get my retribution.
and dentist today,
i learnt so much from chiaw yee!
when she told me like condoms only protect up to 60%.
(yes, like only)
i was like HUH? ONLY?!
i dont know why my reaction was so big.
maybe cos i always thought that it protects up to 99%.
and chiaw yee gave me that why-you-scared-huh kind of look!
which apparently freaked me out.
girls out there,
please keep yr virginity till yr marriage night can?
like yr virginity's the best wedding gift for yr husband.
yr body is the temple of God.
so please respect it.
you wouldnt want to take all the risk just for one stupid sex experience?
its TOTALLY not cool.
so you think its nice to exchange yr flat tummy for a balloon one?
looks at how many innocent young lives are lost through abortions.
and how many cases are there which babies are dumped in singapore.
i dont know why.
but i'm kinda disturbed by abortions and dumping of babies.
anyway, got msleong real pissed today!
(as in the emaths msleong)
i was talking to rachel throughout the entire lesson.
and leong got real pissed.
leong: okaay.lets have rachel chin to show us how to do a translation.
like before she could even say anything,
i just blabber out everything i know.
its correct by the way.
she got real pissed off.
rolled her eyes and she said well done to me.
ha!the class was great!
they were like cheering for me.
come to think of it, we were really mean!
i heard so much rumors.
and i'm qt disturbed by some.
especialy. . .
forget it.
i miss my baby!
nineteen!
laopang didnt remind us yesterday.
i didnt write it down in my handbook either.
and i went to school,
only to know in the morning that i have chinese oral today?!?!
hell, that was certainly bad.
i know my oral's drawing near.
but i didnt know it was today!
and, i perfectly screwed everything up.
greaaatt.
i digressed from the topic given to another.
then to another again.
and after everything,
yulaoshi was like:
(do you think you did well?)
like duh i said no.
she was like:
(ya yr reading was bad.)
what a perect day to screw up my oral.
and i think its plus prelims too.
grrrr.
(unless i got get an a1 for may.
which i must and i will.)
i finished a book.
i just cant my them down once i start reading.
not like love novels can improve my english or something.
but i still love them.
straight home after oral.
ganma they all are watching racing strips!
i guess i missed out on something good.
miracles seem to happen when you take yr olevel results.
do they?
Rachel / Rae
24th nov 1989
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
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